Because sometimes I feel as if it conspiring against me. Or maybe I am just slowly going mad MYSELF. Or, perhaps, I have already arrived.
I very nearly came to tears this morning because I stepped in gum. Yes, GUM ON MY SHOE nearly made me cry. But, I sucked it up like the Big Girl I am and carried on bravely. Then, this afternoon I finally receive the email with an online link for an insurance application so that we can get a quote. X's company is going to pay for Arun's individual insurance policy until we get the company policy worked out since at this rate, we are probably going to have to appeal to the Virginia Insurance Commissioner. SO, I happily, excitedly in a great state of RELIEF start filling out the online application. I am on the last page stuck in a hopeless loop that requires me to answer Question #6 with a "Yes or a No". Which I have done a trillion times. Then, and only then, do I cry.
Updated: Hey. I feel loads better. I should have just let myself have a good sob AGES ago - there have been several stressful Family Things going on at once and this insurance thing was the Straw to my Camel. While I like to pride myself on how much I appreciate my life and its trimmings, I've had to come face to face with the stone cold fact that I do take having health insurance FOR GRANTED. I've always had a job or a parent to help out in that arena.