June 21, 2006

Has the world gone mad?

Because sometimes I feel as if it conspiring against me. Or maybe I am just slowly going mad MYSELF. Or, perhaps, I have already arrived.

I very nearly came to tears this morning because I stepped in gum. Yes, GUM ON MY SHOE nearly made me cry. But, I sucked it up like the Big Girl I am and carried on bravely. Then, this afternoon I finally receive the email with an online link for an insurance application so that we can get a quote. X's company is going to pay for Arun's individual insurance policy until we get the company policy worked out since at this rate, we are probably going to have to appeal to the Virginia Insurance Commissioner. SO, I happily, excitedly in a great state of RELIEF start filling out the online application. I am on the last page stuck in a hopeless loop that requires me to answer Question #6 with a "Yes or a No". Which I have done a trillion times. Then, and only then, do I cry.

Updated: Hey. I feel loads better. I should have just let myself have a good sob AGES ago - there have been several stressful Family Things going on at once and this insurance thing was the Straw to my Camel. While I like to pride myself on how much I appreciate my life and its trimmings, I've had to come face to face with the stone cold fact that I do take having health insurance FOR GRANTED. I've always had a job or a parent to help out in that arena.

5 comments:

alimomof2 said...

I am glad you are feeling better, and that the insurance thing is getting worked out. I am sure with whatever else is going on, that is a big relief.

I try not to let my childrens' (infrequent) tantrums get to me too much, because I know how it feels to just have to "get it out." I used to be more of a crier, but now I want to be a thrower and a yeller. I guess it is good I have the kids around to keep me in check. Physical activity - especially a good kick box or Body Pump class, really helps!

Jane said...

There's nothing like a good cry to reset the Stress-O-Meter. Of course, I never remember that until afterward.

Lisa said...

I hope you are feeling better now. Because that sounds really tough... Sending hugs.

Cheryl said...

I feel you on the insurance issue. I'm coming off of my parents' in January, but I won't be entering the workforce until June. I'm already stressing about whether to bite the bullet and pay the exorbitant short-term premiums or risk not having insurance for six months. Adulthood sucks. Let's go to the playground and play with Arun. Who's with me?

Monkey McWearingChaps said...

I hope you're feeling better and that it gets worked out soon. A good sob can go a long way towards relieving a lot of tension. And also possibly kisses from someone with chunky monkey thighs.